can’t feel // peace at last

i’m waiting
until i can’t feel
your fingers 
hoping they will stop
sliding down 
my body

i’m hoping
that some day —real soon
i’ll shed the last 
of the skin
that you touched

i’m ready for the day
when you don’t come up at all
when i don’t even
remember your name
much less,
your touch

i’m looking forward to 
what my reality looks like
without you in it
when you’re not even a thought
barely a memory

p e a c e  at last